Re-focusing

Dang it.

I meant to update this daily. I really did. But this week sort of got away from me.

I haven't written anything, so already I feel funny. And then the fandom for whom I'm writing this little story exploded over a piece of news that puts my story effectively out of business.

Now, I knew this little development was coming, and for my own peace (piece?) of mind I will finish the story, though I'm not really sure when yet. Right now, only dribbles are coming to me, when it was a flood previously. But you see, the Canon-Keepers of the fandom killed the heroine, and my story deals with that aftermath, and now they are bringing the heroine back. Never mind the bait-and-switch nature of all this. This development means my work here is not done, it's just irrelevant. Not that the story wasn't alternate-universe anyway, but now i feel like my own heroine is at risk of being reviled for not being the Canon heroine.

And that I am even in this position is just dumb.

I think it's time for me to return to that original novel, and gather in all my ideas for other novels, too. To that end I have pulled the old research books and begun re-submerging myself in that milieu, trying to work out the problems encountered in the first draft. I must say, it's far more satisfying than walking on eggshells all the time around this fandom.

For the record, it's not all the time. But around this one character? Oh, yeah. Eggshells in between land mines laced with trip wires connected to shrapnel-filled pipe bombs. On a good day.

I don't like wasting my time, I don't deserve to be dogpiled for having my own opinion instead of someone else's, and this is just a show! So for the moment, I am returning to my real life and just lurking everywhere else. Hopefully I will be able to update this more often as progress -- real, honest progress and not just defocusing! -- gets under way.